What I miss

You know what I miss these days

·         Spending time with a friend and not being in a rush to discuss anything.

·         Just being in the company with a friend with full confidence that if I want to discuss something I would have a patient hearing.

·         Planning an evening with no agenda, except for simple need of 'killing time'.

·         Having the confidence that all the pages that I am supposed to know in a book aren’t hidden from me, and those I am not supposed to are clearly marked so.  

I guess I am just getting old, or suffering from nostalgia; I don’t know.

I do know that I have many things in my past to be proud of; I do know I have had the option to call upon some wonderful people; most of all I know I would miss the present the way I miss the past. (Which itself is beautiful isn’t it)

So I guess I am being thankless and looking for reasons to crib; something which is like our birth right (ok iit right)

I don’t know how to summarise this feeling, a simple thanks won’t suffice, but then it’s not the first time I am falling short of words J

Cheers!

Their feathers are just too bright

"Sometimes it makes me sad, though... Andy being gone. I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. But still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend"........Red in The Shawwhank Redemption


I know it is wrong to compare the recent development in my work environment with the feeling Red shares above. I wouldn't want to be naive enough to compare my work environment with Shawshank for many reasons. Most importantly, none of us have to be on guard against 'sisters' or anything similar in here. But still, if you stay here long enough, you can't help but feel a burden on your back; I surely don't want to look for the cause for I am afraid it could have an ending similar to the one in another interesting movie Shutter.

Still, this place has its similarities with the Shawshank prison, like the routine; whether one accept it or not, the routine grows on you. Some of us might choose to fight against it and do all to avoid it; without realising that they are tied up in another routine of avoiding the popular routine. This is cruel, and I must admit it best either 1) live in the routine, or 2) fight to not live in the routine without realising this fact. Also it somehow manages to rob you of all the hope that you came with; doing it so subtly that you wouldn't know whom to fight. 

Well, the quote above resonates quite well with me these days as few of my colleagues moved out to 'better' opportunities. I know they didn't have to go 500 yards of filth to come out clean like Andy did, still they had to go through the ugly process of interviews etc which arn't the most pleasent ones. Though the mere fact that they are out of this environment does fill me up with similar feelings. On my part, I do hope that they are happy, even if not as contend as Andy, but still a fraction of it. (After all, the retirement around pacific with 350 million of boss's money is a thing of fiction)

Oh, I do miss them, oh I so wish that I would meet my reliving officer soon, and would have the opportunity to see the 'outside' world . I sure would like to meet them again soon...

There are times when you like certain quotes, then there are times when you can relate to certain quotes and best of all there are times when you fail to see anything more beautiful than a quote. Well this hour is the last one, and hence I couldn’t stop myself from picking up the pen (metaphorically) to scramble something.

Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying**

I wonder who among has not seen this movie more than ten times; or have not discussed this over and over, often with same audience. I wonder who among us didn’t like the movie, for once I would love to hear their argument. Honestly, I pity them, for they have missed the most elegant yet subtle definition of ‘Hope’ or shall I say “Life”.

**The famous quote from Shawshank redemption