I honestly believe that I do not harbour huge expectations from life; for one my life time mentor has strictly advised against it, and secondly I completely understand that not all can get the best available thing. The later being a mathematically impossible and former being my motto of life.
But may be because I keep very low expectations it is even more difficult for me to except failures, or may be because I am not used to it, any which way this SUCKS....and I can't tell you what all I am willing to trade just to get this particular thing in my life.
I have friends and am actually blessed with few very good ones, all of them being huge source of inspiration for me in one way or the other. But right now I ain't wanna talk to any one of them for one they will divert me back to the path which led to this failure and secondly its just embarrasing...It seems I have been wrong all along....
I wish to talk to few people who have never stood beside me and not my friends, I know this sounds stupid, but its just I wish for something to go right in my life any which way. I clearly have no idea of what is right and wrong, all I am concerned with is output, I have had enough of sincerety and hard work and all stinking shit...now I need some pay off ...and I ask WHY NOT...
